I finally found this 'Egg' case I was once tagged on FB.
but when I finally bought and trying to wait patiently for it to be processed and shipped, the Seller decided to send me this
I was devastated. I am not even joking. I really wanted this case. and the Seller had the nerve to ask me to choose another? ARE YOU KIDDING ME?! (┛◉Д◉)┛彡┻━┻ I browse thru their 'store' and of course, find nothing that interest me. Now, I've made my decision (after 20 minutes) that I'm going to cancel the transaction. or let it auto cancelled. muahahah! what I don't understand is that, if it's out of stock, why is it up in the store?! щ(ಥДಥщ) like, why are you sooooo deceivinggggg???? I'm just gona willow in self pity now. . . . a/n: this would be the third time AliExpress disappoints me. I'm gonna stick with eBay from today onwards. Goodbye, AliExpress, you suck! (╹◡╹)凸 . . .
I was dead bored the whole of last week that I went shopping ヾ(＠⌒▽⌒＠)ﾉ on eBay. and as I was browsing thru so much random shiz, I came up with an idea; how about I make my very own phone case? like this one
Not my photo as marked.
the plain phone case was DIY-ly designed using a fake-whip-cream clay with little knic-knacs, or decodens, as they called them on eBay (or anywhere else in the world). I watched a couple of videos on youtube and I think I can do it too. and the whip-cream-clay was easy enough to make; dry air clay mixed with liquid glue and water (with measured amount of course). I could buy them on eBay but we all know that would take ages to arrive to Brunei (especially with Free Shipment. coz I'm cheapskate and don't like paying express shipment v(=∩_∩=)ﾌ) But i did buy a couple of decodens from eBay.
this is not my picture. and also not the sample of decodens that I have bought.
this is just an example.
I shall start decorating when those things arrived. For now, I shall relax and buy some more. muahahaha! Nuh, just kidding. I am currently thinking of whether I should start a business doing a customize phone case. ᵔᴥᵔ or I think I'll just buy a few tiny bits of deco at the Mall or something to start my DIY. They probably cost a bit more than the ones from eBay but better than having to wait for my parcel to arrive next month! I'll share some pictures of my very own phone case when I finally made it one day. Let us all pray I have the will to stay motivated. \m/(>.<)\m/ . . .
I used to have a couple more guy friends (other than my old classmates from high school) through out the years. but now, noted the 'used to'? Yeah I didn't type that wrong. I distanced myself from them because they have a girlfriend and she is jealous AF. or as some Bruneian love to say, "Penjeles Kan Mati". I understand pulang. I understand how they feel. Aku kan perempuan jua. But I hope these 'ladies' also understand the reason I stayed away was because aku menjaga hati durang supaya inda 'continue' kan jeles-jeles lagi. Not because i Have feelings for your boyfriend. I am usually a neutral person, yg when a guy friend ada girlfriend and he brings her to our group outing, I usually treat her like she's one of us too. but these ladies usually maintain a cool facade and i think i'm not that dumb to not take a hint. like, awu, boyfriend mu, ambil chia~~ Now these couples are married and I think I was blocked from the guys' IGs too. I just feel sorry that our friendship ended that way. But seriously guys, it's not you, it's your wife. hahaha take a chill pill. Maybe it's because aku single kali. maybe I, somehow, mengeluarkan aura 'desperate' for a husband or something that makes them think that I'm after their partners. Are you for real? Yes, of course I wana get married too and have a husband but woman, I am not that desperate. Banyak lagi lelaki Korea for me to pick from; example, SHINee has 5 member I could choose out from. *ketawa gulik-gulik pasal pakai example lelaki Korea* So, to my other guy friends yg girlfriends durang are my another extension of friends, you guys punya girlfriends are the awesome-st kerana memahami erti persahabatan (or dalam bahasa Inggeris nya: for understanding the meaning of friendship). and just a little foot note: When I like a guy (like a crush or something), I can hardly utter a single word in front of him. So, if you see/hear me chatting away lively and/or enthusiastically, that is not it. to those who think that this post is somewhat insensitive and thought "She's single. She doesn't know what she's talking about. Wait till she's in their shoes" well, maybe you are right. but why don't you give it a thought or two; how do you live with such insecurities? how do you live without trust? If that was the case, shouldn't you be single?
I was supposed to post a topic on 'Guy Friend' tonight but I was watching Parental Guidance, starring Billy Crystal (Or you might recognize his voice as Mike Wazowski from Monster Inc) So, I got side track and decided to share my thoughts on this movie's moral instead.
This movie has been in my external hard disk for so long. I was bored and didn't know what else to watch tonight (coz I usually just watch other movies yg I already watched; Easy A, Mulan, Salt, etc). So, as i was scrolling thru the movies I had, I came across Parental Guidance and I double clicked it. and I just finished crying. Here's a synopsis taken from iMDb website;
Artie and Diane agree to look after their three grandkids when their type-A helicopter parents need to leave town for work. Problems arise when the kids' 21st-century behavior collides with Artie and Diane's old-school methods.
I think I cried because how Alice, Artie's daughter, think of her father reminds me of how I think of my mother. and the things Artie said, when they had their 'talk' makes me think that is how my mother must have felt. I've never been close with my mother like other people do. Our relationship is strictly on mother and daughter basis; She's the superior and I am the kuli. I used to think that she raised me wrong but for so long now, I think she did what she was able. The terms 'I learned things on my own' is a lie. I don't learn things on my own, I had other people guiding me. I guess what makes me think that I was on my own was because they were not taught by my mother. All I can remember right now is how often I was being scolded by other parents for my 'unruly' behavior. I'm not saying my mom was a bad parent. She at least taught me how to be independent. All I'm putting out tonight is that, we shouldn't be too hard on ourselves just because we were brought up that way. From what I've learned so far (coz believe me, I'm forever learning), you have a choice. You can choose to not be how your parents were. I heard sometimes ago that you can't break away from what you've been 'taught' growing up; meaning you are your parents child, and the way they brought you up is the only guidance you had on how you supposed to grow up to be. but that theory is stand to be corrected. Because I've seen it. I've seen people with such horrible up bringing becoming so successful in life. I'm not talking about them getting better income or better lifestyle though that is the perks but I'm talking about successful for not being in such horrible situations anymore. That is why I strongly believe you can break away from it. I know old habits are hard to break. My mom and I (with my other siblings too) are trying to 'reconcile' our 'relationship' since a few years back; coz we hardly ever talked with our mother like how you talked with your mother, but it's hard especially for me. The good thing is, we are still trying and willing to continue to try and be civil (coz one way or another, thing always ended up into a 'fight'). I think that is the most important thing; Try. Coz you don't know until you try, right? . . . disclaimer: I'm not saying me and my mother don't talk to each other. I'm saying we're just not as close as how other Mother and Daughter relationships that I've seen. Ok? OK. . . .
1. During lunch time, an attachment student tried and made her point across to me; Part-Time shouldn't be given to the non-permanent staff. I stared at her for a few seconds and "student jua banar ah" and I laughed. I think I broke her spirit.
I don't mind her debating about the term Part-Time should not be used for the non-permanent staff but meaning can varies. just as 'button' do; keyboard button or shirt button. right? Lucky for her aku malas kan debate also; I could have said to her 'wake up. don't be so lurus bendul. Believe me, you can not apply your text book into real life situation'.
I hope I don't look like this tadi HAHAHAHA
2. a 'sorta' new guy (a handsome one too) whom I thought was my junior rupanya not really. and he scored A1 for his O level English Language. Like, malu ku. Really, my English sucks being in the same group as him. Reality can be so harsh
3. a colleague (or two) was somewhat terasa with me. Meaning, they sensed that I don't really like them. Because they always talk so religiously but they always act so not really religiously. Eg whenever I heard her voice, she always talked bad things about others. like, I'm not a saint either but i think I have talked about other stuff too other than badmouthing others. In a way, this colleague inda pernah tah kan becakap baik. like, I am not even exaggerating.
4. as I got older (and become more senior in the office place), I become so bitter. it's depressing to see just how laid back most juniors are and how they have it so easy.
5. I don't know what I want and where I should go from here.
My life right now; like falling off a chair.
6. Next trip I wana go to Japan. to visit their Universal Studio. they have Hogwarts there.
but that's just how I feel when I look at the number.
Inside, honestly I feel normal. I still feel, well, me.
10th Sep
Spent most of my day time at home and in the toilet (coz I was sick with diarrhea. I still am ┐(‘～`；)┌)
Evening time,
I went to the movie with Zawir. thanks for the movie treat, dude!
he bought me a cupcake
but since i was still sick, I didn't dare to eat it and plan on eating it at home but in our hurry, we lupa to bring the cupcake with us from the food court. hahaha
Scorch Trials, I can't rate it. Coz I am not happy with the 'zombie Apocalypse' . So, when I got home from the movie, aku tarus download the ebook. page 99 now. and you can just tell how much I love the book already. ◎[‿]◎
12th Sep
Lepak time with Geng Keras (+ 1 a.k.a. Kuch's Husband)
they surprised me with cakes (yes, cakes; a RedVelvet cupcake from Buzz, a rainbow cake from Kuch and Chocolate cake from Zawir; he said, 'no more utang ahh' LOL).
THANK YOU GUYS! You awesome! I was touched and thankful. as cKuch's husband said. "saranghaeyo" LOL (and I replied as I clapped 'my work here is done!') ♥‿♥
I was still sick of course, and felt sorry for them coz I kept disappearing to the toilet like, more than necessary LOL Sorry guys. I'll make sure my health will be in order by the next time we hang out. :D
on a brighter note, it has been a fun birthday altogether. ( ･_･)♡
Coz my feed, at an unknown time of the day, will be filled with below
abs abs abs abs
"My body is ready" is genius though hahaha
trust me, this three posts are like the tip of an iceberg.
a couple of days ago, the same account posted some nasty pornic 'imagine' posts.
I was so horrified that I didn't open my IG for the rest of the day until I get home.
I wanted to unfollow but when she is not so (excuse my language) horny, she posted some legit awesome cuts of SHINee videos and pictures. and she hella funny too.
I guess the Pornography post was her way of being funny. but
OH MAI GOAT! BEHAVE YOURSELF!
These were posted by a 13-16 years old! (or may be she's like 17 or 18 but I duno, I'm not gonna ask. like, why would I wana do that?) I'm 28 (yes! 28 today! Happy Happy Birthday!) and seeing this on my feed while in public still makes me blush/shameful like mad! those posts are pg18 at least! on another note; I am glad that they are aware of this sex subject coz from what I've read and saw on TV, it is ok to educate youngster about 'sex'. It actually lowers the rate of teen pregnancies. *shrugged* oh Don't get me wrong. I like watching posts of SHINee's abs, I do. honestly. but when some mother sat next to you while you are waiting in a Q, and she looked at your phone (my iphone 6+ has a big screen and people can just read from beside me!) and saw some skin on it, they won't be very open minded about it. especially in Brunei. as open minded and liberal can one be, it is still a conservative country. :S sorry, makcik. didn't mean for you to see that was all I said in my head. LOL However, that Onew still has his not-showing-my-body game so strong.
We MVPs had to accept the fact that he'd forever be private and respect him for that life choice. Like, no, we are content with his body gags and randomness. we. are. content.
about the only thing we can do.◃┆◉◡◉┆▷ But we still have some OnGuns to look forward to, don't we? Lets us be grateful for OnGuns. For those who doesn't know what OnGuns are, here's what you need to know;
This was from Everybody era.
This was from Law of the Jungle (also during Everybody era).
(also Everybody era) SHINee performing in a club. like, celebrating they all are now legal to enter a club, I guess. LOL
This was from Hello Baby, during Ring Ding Dong/Jojo era.
This was from Lucifer era.
We MVPs may not have OnAbs but our OnGuns are awesome! hahaha Onew can be so much cooler but he chooses to be weird, I don' know.
these are some of the examples. You can enjoy some more randomness when you youtube 'Onew Sangtae' or Onew weird or Onew, I don't know. just try it. You may come across something so weird about Onew one way or another HAHAHAHAH . . . You can't be mean, it's my birthday post and I will post as much of Onew as possible. muahahahaha . . . cr: Non of the above images/gifs/videos are mine. I borrowed them for the purpose of sharing my love for SHINee, esp Onew. I don't get paid posting them, Heck, I don't get paid doing this blog! So,chill... . . .
as I was buying a new pen (PENS) last weekend, I realized that I'm truly a sucker for stationery; Pens, cute erasers, pencils (although I seldom use pencils now that I'm older), pencil cases, ruler (yes, like, I don't know when I'm gonna be using these lovely pieces of measurements), colored markers (sharpies ones are too expensive, so I often buy the kiddies one in 12s ≧◡≦ ), paper clips (YES.PAPER.CLIPS) and journals. Of course, its not limited to the above mentioned items. It could be so much more. here are SOME OF my collections;
yes, stashed away in the coolest pen holder EVER ヾ( ~▽~)ﾂ ♪
and these are the new pen and pencil I bought;
the SHINee/Barbie colored pencil.
and this 'partial' DIY triple-colored pen.
you get to choose what color you want for your pen! it's that awesome! ♥╣[-_-]╠♥
I chose Pink, Purple, and dark Blue.
here's a video of me putting it (sloppily) together.
I could stop myself from buying SHINee merchandise (coz lets face it, those merchandises sometime cost more than I could afford LOL!) but I have the weakest of will to stop when it comes to stationery. like, I really can't stop. Other girls would be suckers for shoes, clothes, or bags. *shrug* I guess, thats just me. "Pen is mightier than the sword," President Sawyer, White House Down. . . . another very good friend of mine just got married last Friday. I couldn't make it to her Nikah (on Friday) and Bersanding (today) day. So, I went to her Berbedak saja last night.
Pretty bride in red!
Congratulation Dr. Zai! Semoga berkekalan sehingga ke akhir hayat. Aminn Ya Rabb. . . .
Coz I am jobless and hating my job (plus a certain someone) to death (╹◡╹)凸
I am making myself busy by trying to memorize this song by the end of this week.
This song was supposed to be easy because it has so much English that I don't understand why is it not in English saja? щ（ﾟДﾟщ）
But it's not easy. I'm always off key during the chorus (not saying I wasn't during any other part of the song; it's just I am more off-key-err during the chorus). and I really don't know how I else I should do it.
I only just realize that I actually have the minus one (meaning the karaoke version or on the official Track List says 'Close To Me (Inst)' Inst being instrument only) version of this song! Now I can record myself (as I usually do when I'm "memorizing" a song) and pretended that I'm in some kind of a studio, recording my new single (n˘v˘•)¬ Currently I've recorded two and I'm not very happy with the outcome.
Practice makes perfect they said.
But I say, lets just give it a rest for tonight and try again ...say, next month.
ahahahaha
So for now, enjoy.
Here's the romanized lyrics for you to read.
Let's memorize together! xD
Sitting alone kabe ni motare reminiscing
Taiyo falling thru kigi no suki ma kara
Now I'm so sorry Konnanimo afure teru
Amai kaori ni
kizuite you're my something I'll be next to you
Am I getting too close? I just want you to stay
Zutto isshoda yo and don't go away
you're always here with me Ima, ai no uta ryute tsutsumikonde hanasanaide
Sono nukumori o kawarazu ni
Now I'm getting you close to me
Mayoikonda koneko no yo It's embarrassing
Kako mo, ima mo, mirai everyday
I'm looking at pictures and know you and then donna ni datte
Aoku tada so clear
Kizuite you're my something I'll be next to you
Am I getting too close? I just want you to stay
Zutto isshoda yo and don't go away
You're always here with me imma ai no uta ryute tsutsumikonde hanasanaide
Sono nukumori o kawarazu ni
now I'm getting you close to me
You are the sin, you are the light
You are in my perfect picture, here I am
mo hitostu can I ask
Oh am I getting too close
I just want you to stay zutto isshoda yo and don't go away
you're always here with mr imma ai no uta ryute tsutsumikonde hanasanaide
Sono nukumori o kawarazu ni
and now I'm getting you close to me (close to me)
oh I'll be next to you now I'm getting you close to me
Here's also the live version
I have a love/hate thing with this live version. i hate it coz she used too much nostril voice. I love it coz towards the end when she builds up the song, it's her awesome live voice that made me love her so much! but no matter, you gotta respect BoA for getting where she is now. I know she deserves it. I'm not really a 'constant' fan of hers but from where I've been following her up until now, I've seen her hard work and versatility. I just hope she will stop trying so hard to break it into the US (as in becoming English). She is great where she is now, she should focus on that. I'm not saying she shouldn't try at all. I'm saying stop 'trying too hard' and lose focus. that's all I'm saying. Remember her Make Your Move movie? BoA was the female lead and at one point the movie was just trying so hard to make this Aya's character 'awesome' like she can switch languages without trouble; speaking Japanese to her friend and then spoke Korean with her brother in the same conversation. It's just, maybe not the best way to sell a movie? I don't know. Critical Analyzing maybe one of the Sept characteristics but Music/Movie business isn't really my forte so, imma shut dap now. Maybe I should try and stay focus instead~(◠﹏⊙✿) . . .
someone mentioned that they miss Onew posts. So, here it is. ma new Lock Screen.
the blurryness was actually not edited. it was just me taking bad photo.
and I thought it would make a perfect Lock Screen wallpaper.
Here's the 'close' to perfect take.
kekeke isn't he precious?? this was taken from their Married to the Music repackage photo album. I think it would come out perfect if I were to scan it but since I don't have a scanner ... let's just leave it at that. After that August challenge, I am now not sure what else I should be posting about. hmmm.... . . .
the similarities in the baju was purely coincidental. but that M moschino phone case (yg macam fries from McD) is thanks to SHINee Key. finally! I am wearing something SHINee related things! I love it! . . .
