this word

KI.A.SU

it's actually Chinese. since I dont know any chinese, I could only Romanized it.

i don't really know what it means but my Chinese colleague told me that it's not something good.

and another Chinese friend told me that it means is similar to 'inda mau kalah'. but it's not exactly that.

So, I'm not quite sure too.

Reason why I'm posting this 'word' is because, recently, I've been feeling like everybody around me is so 'kiasu'.

and it makes me wonder, am I like that too? Coz Kian Egan once said, 'treat people like how you want to be treated'. So, maybe I acted 'kiasu' to them before and now it's like a pay back time kinda thing.

*shrugged*

whatever way, I feel saddened.

I realized how people feel intimidated when 'above' them. like, what? I can't? and I'm not allowed to?

Like Mr. Fletcher once said, 'you win some, you lose some'. So was it wrong for me to win one time when you've already won hundreds? did it kill you?

I know very well that I am not the problem. But I'm still just a girl, who's easily offended over such act.

You make me sad.

I don't want to. but I just am.

Ok, I'm just gona leave this here.

I'll feel better tomorrow.




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