Obsess - Pre Japan Trip

I've been neglecting my Japan trip research. 

I didn't do it on purpose. I was dead busy at the office since before puasa, and then raya lagi and now. I would love to tell you in details over this 'busy-ness' but I realized, it's a waste of time telling story about my ngaleh-ness to someone who doesn't understand what it's like to be working in a 'processing' office. 

So, yeah.

Let's move on.

Someone mentioned about how I never talked about the Japan trip anymore and that made me realized, I should start again.

because (I just check and almost freaked out!) Japan trip is 45 days to go.

Last night (Saturday 23rd July, Daniel Radcliffe birthday BTW), I was supposed to be planning my 'Countdown' posts but I got bored. 

at first, I did the research in between composing the Countdown post but after a while, I found out that, doing my itinerary is far more exciting than doing my 'Countdown' post hahahaha

(my Countdown post for throwback-to-24th-Jul-2014 was done the entire afternoon of Sunday, 24th)

So,

I was mostly reading reviews the entire time I was Googling.

I search about whether or not we should buy the JR Pass (train ticket)

• a colleague (who recently just got back from Japan) said, buying transportation passes on the go is alright too, especially when you already know where to go.
• from one of the reviews I read, JR pass is, like, taking-the-easy-way-out kinda tix.
• another review said I should do more research on transportation passes but they are certain that not buying the JR pass is an OK thing.

hmmm

• and just now I found another review that said JR pass is cheaper.

So, I used Google Map to check the train route (did you know this Google map is so awesome?! it shows the cost as well!) and when I calculate the individual train tix (just train tix, excluding subways and bus fares) the total is BND396 where as the 7days JRpass cost around BND378.

I know the difference here is BND18 saja. 

One review did say yg the JRpass doesn't cover all areas but the places that I'm going to have JRpass access to them (as far as my research goes lah ah).

this is so stressful.

stressful because I'm obsessing!

no wonder I gave this a rest when I did. 

coz, Imagine me being stress out over my work and then stressing out over this itinerary stuff - people will hate me! 

hahaha

I should sleep. 

and continue this tomorrow during lunch break

muahahaha!

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no picture attached coz I duno what picture I should attach; me eating my hair or the map of Japan.

Looking back to:

24th July 2014

where I posted 






that was two years ago and nothing much has change about that Key point.

come to think of it, nothing much has change since my Westlife days.

the only big difference I can think of right now is that;
back then, I was so convinced that I'm going to marry cBryan.
Now, I'm convinced that I'm going to marry cOnew.



maybe when i got married someday, I won't be this obsessive anymore 

Being Dramatic o(≧▽≦)o

Ladies and Gentlemen

I am proud to announce

the start of my

just to remind you that the upcoming throw back posts won't be a total 'repost'. they are mostly a 'recap' and 'highlights' of an old post. ✌.ʕʘ‿ʘʔ.✌

with that being said,

the first one will be posted shortly 

(▰˘◡˘▰)

 . . .

I just started learning how to draw with MS Paint (the proper and pro-like way) via youtube (yeah, might as well use that time I spent on youtube worth while). 

So please bear with my sakai-ness. v(=∩_∩=)ﾌ

Brilliant Idea

Hello everyone!
It's me, Az Nuur.

I just had this brilliant idea that I wana do for the rest of my posts this year;

doing a 'throw back' post until the 6th Dec 2016!

Why, you might ask? Why on the 6th?

Well, if you didn't know, that was the day I created this blogspot account.

the idea came when I was 'calculating' (using calculator of course *roll eyes* working in a bank does not guarantee your excellence to do math in your head) how many posts i should post for the remaining months left in 2016 so that I could have 1000th post by end of this year.

So, I went thru my 'archives' and found out when I created this account (on the 6th Dec 2008!) but I was not active until Mar 2009. you can go check the validity of my story on the right *points to the right corner of this blog page*

SEKALI!

teklik tah ku!

why not I do

Countdown To 1000th sempena my 8th anniversary with blogspot

*throws confetti*

I'm not gona repost any of my old post. I'm mostly gona highlight them, you know, like those throw back thursday kinda thing. (or was it Throw Back Sundays?)

I'm still gona be posting my normal blog updates.

this brilliant idea is mostly to motivate me to post more.
and a reason to use my surpluses of Planner I got from last years
and maybe (JUST MAYBE) I can start to 'manage' my life better while doing stuff that i jot down
instead of procrastinating stuff n shit
OR instead of forever lazying around

yeah, those are good enough reason for me to end this post and start 'planning'

LET'S DO THIS!

I'm only human

I can hold my breath
I can bite my tongue
I can stay awake for days

If that's what you want

I can fake a smile
I can force a laugh

If that's what you ask
Give you all I am

I can do it

But I'm only human 
and I bleed when I fall down
I'm only human
I crash and I break down

I can turn it on
Be a good machine
I can hold the weight of the world
If that's what you need

I can do it

But I'm only human

Just a little human

I can take so much

Until I've had enough

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from the song Human by Christina Perri.

Youtube 2.016

So, I was watching some 5-minute-make-up tutorial on youtube last night (not that I'm gonna be using it. I was just 'nosy' xP)

and tau-tau

I came across and watched these videos 

(thats why kena recommended to me today on my home page)

videos about removing ingrown hair on skin (on every part of your body) and removing white-heads/acne prevention on your face, etc.

they're disgusting, I know but somehow VERY satisfying!

and when you read the comments on each video, you'll find that I am not the only one yg feel that way. Some even find peace in watching them!

I've always have white-heads problems on my face and I've been obsessing over doing my own 'facial' every other night. 

*whispers : that's why I seldom post selfie, coz my face full of 'pilat' or scars. hahahah

I need to stop watching these videos coz if I continue, I might not be able to 'beraya' once I do my 'facial'

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Inspiration

That time when I inspired a fan account to make a post

Glad to be of service.

but I would appreciate it more if S/He credited me for the inspiration S/He got from me :P

Joking hahahah 

(or am I?)

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Post Worthy 7.1016

So, it's Hari Raya and you know what that means?

it's that time of the year you go visiting (which called BERAYA to) your grandma's place, cousin's place and friend's place.

you know what's more tear jerking moment than reminiscing the old times?
it's when you go Beraya but you were on your phone the entire visit.

I have a first hand experience on that.

Might as well you don't come and visit if you're gona be on your phone all the time.

Don't blame people if you no one wants to talk to you or bother to make a conversation.

don't even blame the phone.

Coz you're the human one and the decision, the choice is yours.

#PutDownYourPhone and #MakeRealConversation

Image credit to respective owners.

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Question

Caution
long post.

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you know that guy friend who has a girlfriend-turn-wife yang penjeles ya amat?

When Ahmad (bukan nama sebenar) begirlfriend with Sarah (bukan nama sebenar), Ahmad had been avoiding his other friends. especially yg bini2.
the other female friends was told (by the male friends of their circle of friends) that Sarah was a penjeles girlfriend.
the other female friends understand.

and then, Ahmad and Sarah got married.

So, here's a situation:

Erin posted something on social media and Ahmad liked it.
Erin got scared. Scared that Ahmad's wife Sarah would get a wrong idea.
but nothing happened (Sarah did not go and cyber attack Erin, like Erin thought Sarah would). thus, Erin ignored the like and be neutral about it.

Months had passed and Erin noticed that Ahmad liked her posts every now and then. 
Erin was no longer worrying and become curious instead.

masa becouple, you are not allowed to talk or like or heart any other girls' post on social media
but
selepas kawin, you can resume the talking, liking, hearting other girls' post?



Here's the question:

Why is that?

disclaimer: I am single AF and I'm not trying to be know it all about this kind of thing. I'm just curious.

In my understanding, if I don't want him to talk to other girls when we're dating, I certainly don't want him to talk to other girls when we're married.

Maybe it's a trust issue?
you don't trust him when he's your boyfriend
but
you trust him when he's your husband?
PLEASE UNDERSTAND: the 'He' here is the same person.

In my understanding, if I can't trust him when he's my boyfriend, why on earth did I marry him?!

Let's change POV (point of view)

Maybe he was menjaga hati the girl
Ok, he jaga my hati when he's my boyfriend
but
thought it's ok to not jaga my hati when we're married?
Isn't menjaga hati your wife more important?

I really can't do much POV on guys 


Anyway,

I'm just dead curious about this stuff.

coz from Erin's POV, she is scared that Sarah might get the wrong idea. Ahmad might thought that what he's doing is ok. but who knows what Sarah is feeling, right?

I also understand that maybe Sarah isn't getting a wrong idea coz Ahmad married her and she shouldn't be questioning his loyalty and trust him.

Another opinion of mine; Ahmad shouldn't be like that from the moment he berCouple with Sarah. He shouldn't push away his female friends in the beginning to jaga hati girlfriend but after he kawin with Sarah, resume being friends with his female friends again. it's confusing and troublesome.

but once again, I don't know why Ahmad did what he did. Maybe that's the only way he knows how to deal with it?
I just strongly believe that he could've handled it better.

because the moment Ahmad pushes his other friends (male and female) away, they also distant themselves from him. and when he tries to befriend them again, they don't want to.

can you blame them?
I understand if you push away bad influences from your life to be better
but we're friends. 
IF not the best of friends, I'm sure we're good friends of yours.
I get that you can't talk to us (female) to jaga the hati of your girlfriend but did you realize that you avoided going out with our group (have male also) too?
and now that you're married, you wanted to go back to how it was?
are you serious?

that's not how you're supposed to treat your friends.

I understand that married people have commitment but i have never met anyone, who before they were married, pushes everybody away just to keep 'the other half' happy.

that's all that I've got to say.

I could write a novel about this, believe me.

Yes, Erin is me. it's how I feel about the situation. the curiosity is mine.

Once again, I'm single and maybe I don't understand this "sacrifices".

all I can do right now is be neutral and try not to overthink. 

My positivity   It's definitely not me. it's them.

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Hannah Montana 2.016

I thought I've watched the entire Hannah Montana series.

turns out, I only watch up until half way thru season 3 (HM has four seasons).

So, since the 2nd night of Raya until the 3rd night, I've been watching Season 4 (called Hannah Montana Forever) and I was hit with a realization that I know all the HMF songs (coz I bought the OST album) but never actually watch the episodes.

Google is such a good bestfriend at this time of need. ٩◔‿◔۶


I was almost teary for the final episode, Actually, season 4 is really very touchy from start to finish. 
Coz, it's the final season atu kali. 
plus, it's when Miley started to realize that she can't have the best of both world at the same time anymore. and everything just went from a tear falling to crying buckets moment after that (no actually tears were harm. I just have a lot of feels).


I'll Always Remember You (the most elaborate flashback/reminiscing clip in history. EVER)


Wherever I Go (awesome fanmade clips)



I shall rerun the entire series soon. 

for now, I should get some shut eyes.

it's been a looonnngggg day.

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Hari Raya

can you believe it?
it's Hari Raya already!

and I have not stop drinking sodas/sweet-canned drinks since morning.

I did not take any OOTD or our newly-cleaned living room or festive foods on our table pictures.

I wasn't busy.

for the first time, in a long time, I finally feel 'chill' on first day of Hari Raya. 
(coz I used to be such a control freak. well, I still am, deep down, but, I'm trying to minimize it :P).

Anyway,

Selamat Hari Raya to all my family and friends.

Maaf Zahir dan Batin

(credite goes to respective owner)

I don't wanna say anything about not going beraya-ing coz, remember that 'at least two sungkai-out' post? yeah. I decided to just go with the flow.


I'm so sleepy now. 
currently watching Hannah Montana season 4 episode 7. maybe I should give it a rest and continue some other day.
coz tomorrow kami balik kampong and I'm telling you, it's gonna take an entire day.

Nasib cuti panjang. I shall recharge my sleep before Monday comes.

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Hello July

So, after my last Sungkai out last week,
I went on to another 4;

5. with my sister again @ Escapade Sushi Sungkai Buffet. brilliant choice of food!

(These pictures were taken when the place was almost closed. that's why the food seem not many :P)

6. with me familia

7. with my colleagues

8. at Kuching's house in Tutong. (sorry, no picture. :P)


We have 2-3 days left of Puasa, I'm certain that I wont have anymore Sungkai Out after this. xP

I finally made my cornflake madu.

it's so easy but I don't know why it took me at least 2hr30mins (plus plus) to finish everything. hahaha Geng Keras said they're 'nyaman' so I'm pleased xD

Even so, I'm still not feeling the Hari Raya.

I have not ready with my baju raya yet. Maybe if i started with them, I will finally feel the Raya excitement? ¯\(©¿©) /¯


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