I'm just independent

I think that I am an independent woman.

I'm so used to being single that I wonder if that's the reason why I don't bother 'looking'.

I'm happier making my own choice even after I ask others for theirs. coz let's face it, when we were face with a certain crossroads and was about to make a choice, we already chose a road but to make sure that we chose the right one, we asked others for their opinions. and more often than not, we still choose the one we already chose in the beginning. 

Kan?

the main point of this post, 
this book.

I bought this a long time ago. i think i was still in high school when I had it. 

It must've been funny back then but I don't see it now. reading it again, i was annoyed.
macam, how desperate can we, women, be? 
the author of this book is a woman btw.
I know it was meant to be a joke/funny book.
I just don't see it now after experiencing so much shit. 

this goes back to the top; we don't need to be so desperate to get the guy/man we (thought we) love. Our lives don't depend on them. Not when they're such douchebags. I just believe that when you pour your heart out to the guy/man that you (thought you) love and they run the miles, they definitely not worth the chase. Coz from my sad (and stupid) experience, most guys/men just love the chase. That's why we women better stop chasing.
BUT
when you finally stop and realize how stupid you've been and he finally came running back to you
REMEMBER
NOT to give in easy and accept him back to your life.

I don't know about those love stories circling about the universe
but what happened to me was the guy came back only to see if he still have that 'power' over me. coz apparently his the type of guy JUST GOTTA cheat on his woman.
-_-
macam, get over yourselves, man.
Pastu, the other one kept hinting about shit but when I was about to give him the chance, rupanya sama jua, 'testing power' as my cousins put it and he actually got engaged to another woman.
-_-
macam, the fck, man.

this is too personal but I guess it's time to share this horrid 'love' story of mine
and maybe answer people's question as to why I'm still single.

Simpler answer? I DON'T TRUST MEN. 
I know i've been hurt only (maybe seriously) a couple of times in this life time tapi they run deep. 
Plus, from my work place, I heard and seen a lot of 'cheating'. It scares me just what the world is turning into.
I know not all men are like that but a lot of them are so I can't help but feel like they can't really be trusted.
I used to tell myself that if the man is brave enough to approach me, he's worth it.
But after those two, no, they are not worth it.
mikin berani drg approach you, mikin kuat lah 'skill' nya.

hahaha macam sikit lagi feminist post ani. tapi it's not. not really.

Lucky I still belief in 'the one' and the one for me is out there. 
just maybe not here in Brunei?

LOL

ah well, I've written down a little portion of my heart today andddddd I'm not gona reread this. 

Well said, FreshPrince, well said.

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