Happy For Sungmin

I was 'cleaning' my external HD last Saturday, 13th Dec

and I came across the only episode of TvN TAXI that I had; Sungmin, Luna and Jessica were in it. 

I was a little upset seeing Jessica there; listening to her talk about her trainee days with SNSD. You all know how she got kicked out few weeks ago, right? So, yeah. She's my least fav in SNSD btw. ahaha surprise2 for me to be feeling sad about her not being a SNSD member anymore. 

anyway, long story short, I finished cleaning and went on to browse IG on my phone. then I saw it.

Someone (a fanaccount) post Sungmin's wedding picture. 

I completely forgotten all about it. seeing him on TAXI only reminded me of how he used to be one of my fav in SuJu.

and then I cried.

Tears of happiness. 

really, it was of happiness. like how I feel when I saw Nicky's and Shane's wedding pictures.

I think these idols deserve happiness.
I know I said this idol is my future husband and what not
but let's be real for a sec. I. don't. have. a. fcuking. chance. with. them. EVER.
hahaha awu, sadar ku. 
it's just fun having something to be obsessed with, you know. (It gives me something to think about other than why am I still single. or something. hahaha)
oh well, the new obsess fans don't understand this, yet. But trust me, as you get older, when your perspective changed, then you'll understand my feelings. 
their happiness will be yours too.
and most importantly, YOU DON'T FREAKING OWN THEM. 
YES. I'M TALKING ABOUT YOU! YOU DELUSIONAL FREAK!
hahaha 
I'm just pissed that some fans had the nerve to comment on the other SuJu members IG posts on how upset they were that Sungmin got married. Like, are you fcuking kidding me?
How would you feel, on the happiest day of your life, someone claimed that your happiness made them suffer? like, is this even relevant?
Is me getting pissed over this even relevant?
hahahah
I guess I spent too much time 'hanging out' on the social networks.
I need to get out more.

anyway, Congratulation Sungmin! wish you all the happiness in the world. Saranghae!

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