Thought of the day

Maturity isn't claimed.

Maturity is not something you declared yourself to be.

Its just not what you think it is.

Even these quotes are not all it.

Maturity is just.

#self-reflect

or is it?

muahahaha

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a/n: I know there are certain things where you can claim yourself to be, but claiming to be mature while condemning someone childish, is not it.

Productivity

Last last weekend, I decided to delete my new Story (well, not so new) I posted on AFF (stands for Asianfanfics.com if you don't already know).

I posted this last chapter

and as you can see, I was informing my 4 subscribers that I'm deleting the story soon.

but the next morning, when I opened my AFF tab, I saw someone subscribed to my story.
I was supposed to delete it in a few hours but I posted the above late and faktor umur, I slept earlier than I planned to and had to do it the next morning.
As any writer would be, I was happy and had a second thought about deleting the story.

So,
I reread the story (the one that I already posted).

and I was surprised.
I was actually doing pretty good (if I can say so myself).
I say this because I've been telling myself that my layout or how I laid the words are crappy.
the fact that I only have 4 subscribers since I published it on 5th Apr 2015, makes me believe that I'm a crappy writer.

but as I was reading the second chapter, I thought to myself, "This is actually pretty good"
well, not JK Rowling good but you know, good enough for me and I'm actually satisfied with what I have posted.

then, I wondered, why was I so negative before?

I guess, it was the same issue that I had here, in blogspot
I was thinking too much about what other people think or how they would take this or how many comments I would get.
The fact that people are all over EXO in fanfics right now and all the older SHINee fans isn't on AFF anymore, demotivate me to continue posting my story.
the fact that I was lazy and procrastinating af isn't helping either.
I think too much about what other people think.
I should go back to being me and post what I want and how I want to.

Seriously, 
I need to take my own advise into accounts these days.
I've been EVERYWHERE.
as in, my mind isn't here nor there. same goes to my heart.
I don't know.
I need to keep it all together.
I need to get back up and be me.

In regards to my AFF story, I'm going to hide it from public views until such time when I am ready to properly commit to regularly update it.

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disclaimer: I'm not saying I'm going to change straight away. this thing needs time and patient. and I'm trying. please be proud of me trying to better myself instead of judging on how I do things. As i posted once on Facebook, "Just because I'm doing it my way, doesn't mean that I'm doing it wrong"

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Lindsay Lohan

this is a scheduled post.
(as many of my posts have been muahahah)

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So, I was just watching an interview video of Lindsay Lohan from facebook and it was really interesting.




the topic that she was talking/discussed about is another matter

but what was interesting to me is the way she conveyed them.

The way she chooses her words and how very collected or knowledgeable of her to be able to convey what she wanted to say.

the way she acknowledged her past and refuses to talk more or dwell on it, shows how grown she has become.

I'm a fan of her work (and I don't really follow her 'dark' period) and seeing her in that interview makes me proud of her.
Not that I know her on a personal level, but because - womenhood. 
I think I'm in that phase of trying to find myself and what I like doing. Seeing that Ms. Lohan here is half-way there finding herself makes me feel that I have a chance too. 
I mean, her hardship was highly publicized! if she can raise up from that, why can't I?

She's another one of my inspiration today.

Here's another interview with Ellen.



a/n: some may say that she maybe faking this and is scripted. well, what do you know about hardship/mentallydepressed/onyourown ?

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Tsk

that one time SHINee acted like they have not been fed for days

but still cute as fck

and ain't we have a lot in common? *naik2 kirai*

hmm, I think this comment was the reason he was cast in that Eat Sleep Eat tv show.

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Artisty-ty-ish Me

Sup!

I wonder if I shared this already

but if I haven't

here ya go

I'm an Artist, 

according to my iTunes

nah~ this was just the records of me trying to sing

no, you don't want to hear me sing

your ears will bleed

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Reality

this really happened

Someone was given a bouquet flower at the office

but she didn't want it

rupanya they broke up already

I told her, before she throw the bouquet away, I want to take picture with it

which at the end of the day, I did take picture with.

#shameless#iknow#LOL

and also, we shared the flowers among us (6 people), I took two.

I put them in my Coffee Bean recycled cup.

Moral of the story;

when it's over, it's over.
Jangan tah bagi flower segala.
sayang saja duit
ending nya, the girl will not want the flowers and throw them away
or worst
bagi arah colleagues nya HAHAHAHAH

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Seriously

to all my friends yg kan go Korea sometime in the future

can you help a friend out?

singgah kamu sekajab ke SM punya SUM shop

and 

buy me these casing?!

I mean,

PLEASE???????

coz it's so hard finding SHINee casing anywhere! 

ESPECIALLY for my iphone 6 plus.

they don't seem to be making one for it.

seriously

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Facial Stuff

I think I'm late to this 'game'

but I'm on it now.

Facial daily/nightly routine.

It took such discipline, i tell you. (coz I wasn't very committed with this kind of thing :S)

So currently, after every facial wash, I will use toner and moisturizing cream.

I even obsess over buying face mask last month

This doesn't look much but trust me, Face Shop ain't cheap.

Got this free goodies too. 

Super love the panda mask.

In all honesty, I don't know what these masks did to my face but that's maybe because I only uses them once (each) and that can't be enough to review it properly.

I'll update nanti2 when I finally noticed changes on my face (like when I become pretty or something HAHAHA)

For now,

discipline!

and 

commitment!

and 

constant vigilant!
eh salah movie.

hahahaha

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Dammit!

maannnnnnnn~~

I should've obsessed over NCT in SHINee's short absence!

Now, Onew is not chasing after me!!!

Dammmiiiiittttt!

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SHINee 1 of 1

SHINee's Back!!!!

another detour post
but as mentioned on the other detour post, this is important!!

please watch the video from SM official youtube channel



I listened to the album here



and I know I said I'm gona love all the songs from the album

butt

I am only human (a fussy one at that)

and I didn't like all.

or maybe I wasn't really listnening.

hahaha I was at the office when I listened to the album and we all know how much office life sucks the life out of me.

So, I will try and give it a listen once again when I get home

or give me a few more days to develop my feelings towards it.

but for now, ENJOY!!!

and no, of course I have not receive my copy yet. I bet they will arrive end of this month.
if we are lucky

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edited 8th Oct: my Favorite song up to this point is Prism and So Amazing. xD

Japan Trip Day 2.0

Let's sub-title this as PICTURES ARE NOT ENOUGH!

and also

SUPER LONG POST

and

I WILL MAKE YOU JELES!! Wehwehweh
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composing this in public coz, my brother.

*rolled eyes*

So, day 2 in Japan was *jeng jeng jeng*

MY BIRTHDAY!!

and I screenshot this


(say goodbye to the 'Slide to Open' features)

lupa ku if this was taken when I woke up or when we're ready to go to Universal Studio Japan.

pokoknya, aku excited and can not wait for Harry Potter!

We bought tickets on the spot. We were supposed to buy them online but for some hassle reason, I decided we didn't. yatah kami bali time di sana sja.
The Q was pretty long but the service was kinda fast, so we weren't there for even 30 mins.
I guess it was just my birthday. (hahaha)

Since it was my birthday, Bazilah actually agree to just go straight to the Wizarding World of Harry Potter part of the USJ.
we actually got turned away once we got to the entrace.
*nangis*

I read somewhere that you need to book an entry tix (it's free).
the reason being for them to control the number of people flocking into HP world.
So, on we went looking for a certain ticket kiosk (as directed by one of the HP helpers).
We got lost.
and my impatient ass almost cried when we couldn't find the ticketing kiosk.
hahah seriously
but once we found it, there were a lot of Qs (coz a lot of ticket kiosks!) and before my ass could properly panic, there were a lot helpers there (coz everything is in Japanese and I was scared of not being able to obtain that entrance tix) and before (once again) my ass could cry, we were helped and we were on our way back to the Wizarding World of Harry Potter.



took this picture coz at first I thought I could keep it but at the entrance, the ticket person ambil balik this tix (instead of durang punch a hole on it or something).
note: Eventhough on the ticket it says 10:30 till 11:30, we actually stayed inside Hp world right up until 4pm or something. they didn't shoo you away or anything if you overstayed.

so, it was a long way away before you could see the Hogsmeade gate.

i found a lamp that actually reminded me of Narnia

(and this pathway is not even halfway to the park!)

and Mr. Weasley's magical car turned beast.

I had a video when I was entering Hogsmeade but I don't know if the internet would upload it today.
(i tried again on the 7th Oct, but video still refuses to load -__- )

I don't have picture of the gate.

once we masuk that place, GAH!
words really inda dpt explain how I felt
this is like my entire teenage years bursting out and greeting the place
everything was like a dream.
the feeling of you wanting to take pictures of everything but you also want to just 'be there'.
like you wish your eyes can just capture everything for you and auto transfer those images from your brain to your phone.
you know that feeling?!

but lucky I was rational and took as many pictures/videos when I could. or remembered to. LOL


of course, there were things yg I didn't take picture of.
partly because I was lazy to snap them. HAHAHA
I mean, COME ON!
I was there in person!
and as much as I want to share with people about my experience (being physically there),
there's just so much photo or video I could share.

But
in all seriousness,
I was just ...IN AWE!
like, I WANA LIVE THERE!

I wonder how the workers feel being there all the time?
I mean, I could die happy there (hahaha)


I'm gonna let the pictures do the talking next. (with captions if I could think of any xP)


Butterbeer (non-alcoholic it says) tasted like a dream~~~~




(trying on my wand, "Give it a wave" Mr Ollivander said)


the female part of the 'Public Convenience'. 
Thats what it says outside the restroom.



If Brunei is hot, Japan at that time was WAY hotter. like, daym!


Coz my brain said, 'Pick your nose, it'd be hilarious!'


Trying on my new move at one of the alley



'Death is just the beginning' The Mummy. not a HP quote.

that maybe the last picture I took from HP world but I will be back in two years time to take some more!! (InsyaAllah~~)

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I tell you, we were already tired from the previous day that by the time we walked out of HP, we didn't have enough energy to play other rides. 
Seriously!
ahaha

So what we did was that, we just walked around USJ.
its definitely bigger than the one in Singapore, thats for sure.
but both still give me that awesome feelings for just being inside the park.

I managed to play the Flying Dinosour, from the Jurassic Park part of USJ.



a very awesome 'flying' roller coaster.

cBuzz didn't join me. So I went solo.

and I could've moved along the Q just fine but I was stopped twice coz I was using a 'headscarf' and this Flying Dinosour ride does not allow people wearing anything that is loose and one of those things include 'scarf'.
Thus, being the strict rule follower that they are, they stopped me twice, trying to explain to me in English that I need to use a certain jacket (that actually was supposed to be used during water ride).
Of course I don't have picture for that coz I actually left my bag with cBuzz. I only had my hand towel with me at that time.
Anyway, I don't know how long I was there 'Q-ing' but once I got on the ride, I understand why they were very strict. the moment before the ride get off, our seats was pulled up from the feet, so we were actually in a 'flying' position.
and the ride was super fast, it actually go up and down, side ways and twisting around. Lucky I didn't feel like puking. I saw mostly sky. a section of the coaster track goes inside a tunnel! 
I was mostly laughing. ahahah coz I enjoyed it so much! I screamed certain area, of course but mostly was feeling so giddy.
hahaha crazy

Lapas tu, we were supposed to Q and watch the Under World show but Buzz wasn't feeling it so we just continued to walk around the park.

I didn't take picture but from the moment we stepped onto the Universal Cit Station, there were a lot of cosplayers. All universal movies' characters of course.
there were; 
1. Sexy Police girlfriend + Prisoner boyfriend, 
2. hot Sexy female/male SWAT team, 
3. Maids, 
4. Minions (Minions are the craze there), 
5. Sexy (stripper like) mom with her kids,
6. Sexy army, 
and 
many many MANY more!
most people actually went there dressing (what we call here in Brunei when people dress similar in color/pattern) Sekayu.
it was all very interesting to watch.

I might not play all the ride outside of Harry Potter world but the scenery in USJ is entertaining enough man! like, daayyymmmmmmm!

hahahah

I think we left USJ at around 5pm kali and we bought dinner before we went back to our hostel.

got lost once though before we finally made our way to rest our feet a bit at our hostel's lounge before we made our way to Osaka Castle.

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a/n: told you its a long post. Thank you for even reading this far. xD this was supposed to be posted yesterday, 6th of Oct but internet being its awesome-self, and the pictures refuses to upload. but, here it is, edited and posted on the 8th Oct.

Hope everyone enjoy their weekend ahead xD

SHINee's back!!

a detour post.

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I know I need to continue my day 2 in Japan but this is important!

SHINee's BACK!!!

next week.

and their theme for this comeback is 90s


a comment on IG said something around the line of "No wonder the teasers took ages to load. They were using Internet Explorer" LOL #savageShawol




THIS ENTIRE 5JIB WILL BE MY JAM!

because I was brought up with the 90s musics.



there were clips/teasers of 5 of their new songs posted on their Official IG account. YES! O.F.F.I.C.I.A.L. A.C.C.O.U.N.T.



and from these teasers, I'm already in love with them songs! like, BRING IT ON!

they even have a cassette tape version!



(I also preOrdered this one) MAN WAS I GLAD I STILL HAVE MY WALKMAN! I don't know if they would work properly BUT THANK GOD I HAVE IT!

and from all the article, that cassette tape version was already pre-order-sold-out on the 27th Sep. like, my supplier better not be telling me on release day that they didn't manage to book before the 27th. coz I WILL SUE THEM AND SM!

hahaha
emosi~

ok, lets calm down and think about posting my Day 2 of Japan Trip instead.



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A/N: not even sorry for all the caps. hahahahaha fyi, please consider this post as my motivation to post about my Japan Trip Day 2.0



isn't he Gojusssss??