Feelings (and shit)

was talking with my juniors the other day and we were talking bout 'crushes'.

I was giving an advice to them (not that I'm eligible or anything but ya know..from a senior's point of view to the junior's), especially this one girl who had a 'hardcore-imma-stalk-ya-to-the-worm-hole' kinda crush on someone.
I told them, talk to him. Just talk. find a topic (I mean, you already stalked their profile, there must be something that you guys can talk about, right?) and talk about it. 
Why? 
Because this way you'll find out whether you really like him (like, whether he's worth the time to 'freak' over) or not.

Reason why I told them the above was because I ruined what could've been a great friendship with the guy I like. I was too busy being 'shy' and 'freakin out' when he was around.
LOL
Oh, we're friends now. Kawan yg only 'hi' and 'bye' bila terserempak. ya know.
it's kinda sad.

So, that experience, I don't want my junior to end up like me. 

Screw that 'boys must make the first move' shit. Boys/Guys/Men aren't meant to do the first move anyways. (HAHAHA speaking like a true bitter person ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) )

I mean, if you don't try, then you will never know, right?

Make the first step, ladies. 

It's ok


a/n: not that I would. I'm just saying that they should coz I know they are a lot braver than I am. ヽ(^◇^*)/

Image isn't mine.


. . .

Keep Your Mind On You

I was approached by a colleague and he asked me why he often sees me alone? 

He even asked me if I was ok?

I gave him the (ு८ு) face.
I laughed it off of course and told him that I was ok
and the reason why he sees me alone all the time (esp during our one hour break) was because;
You see, my job, I don't just do paperwork coop up in my cubicles all day. I attend customers at the counter, on the phone often; answering customers NEVER ENDING queries, and of course on top of these, I have to do inputting (a.k.a. my version of paperwork) transactions into our systems too.
You see (yes, again), during working hours, I barely have time to think for myself. Customer comes first. Even if I had the chance to text or play with my phone during those time, it's not as satisfying as when you do it (without interruption) during your one hour break. 
In short, 
I need my fucking space.
I didn't say the F work to him though. Just, the 'I need space'.
He nodded and had that unconvinced look on his face. Like, he knew me better than I do. 
(¬_¬)
it wasn't the first time he asked me this. previously he even got the nerve assuming that I was 'heartbroken' or something.
Like, major WHAT.THE.WHAT
Just because I like being alone, doesn't mean I'm heartbroken and shit.
I just like being alone, ok? as I explained why above.
andddd
this is the example of;
never to judge a book by its cover
or
Assumption is bad, as Grissom once said
or
Mind your own business (seriously!)

a/n: maybe he was trying to flirt but way too hard man. I wasn't impress. tone it down a little bit, will ya? 
Image isn't mine.


. . .

SHINee's point of View?

check out this video guys. SHINee - View.

Shawol needs your help too



I LOVE THE SONG!! 
like really! 
the last comeback song of SHINee that I really like was Ring Ding Dong.
hahaha no, seriously. the other comeback song was nice and stuck in your head but was never my favorite from the (that time) album.

fav comment for this video:

 

and the video.
not as horrid as I think it would be. LOL

and I love how someone managed to put my feelings into words for me

I don't know how YouTube video count works but i think View's count kinda stuck at 738,821. 

I hope by tomorrow it'll reach 1mill. hehe all of the SHINee fanaccount yg I follow on IG asked fellow Shawol to make View the most epic comeback. So, I'm gona help anyway that I can (buying original physical CD and watching the Official video from SM official channel on YouTube). Not that my contribution matters. much.

a/n: the lyrics was done by our Kim Jonghyun himself. I am a proud mama! but the translation. ( 　ﾟ,_ゝﾟ) hmm.. I could have do without it. Now I cannot unread them. 
(。・_・。)

. . .

Just so you know

my current lock screen

ヘ(^_^ヘ)

and also

〜(￣▽￣〜)(〜￣▽￣)〜

that is all.


. . .

SHINee 4th Album

SHINee official LINE account had been sharing photo teasers for their upcoming new album, Odd. 

hottest of issues came with Onew's teasers. 

No. 1 
this picture

If I was a 13/14 years old I may have reacted the way the others do.
hahaha
luckily I am not.
ada lah sikit but I don't know. It's just funny reading all these comments; most common were 'dont touch my dubu' and 'dont touch my chicken'. ^o^ (I wonder if these people ever watch the concert video where Onew actually had 'heated' moment with a girl. Coz I did. Compare that video to this picture, this picture had nothing on me. ᕙ(⇀‸↼‶)ᕗ)
Esp this one on FB.

there were a number of relies to this (red one) comments but when I went and screencap it, they were no longer there. I guess she deleted it of something. and I didn't bother erasing her name since she wanted to be 'heard'. (the other two are for your entertainment only (✿◠‿◠) )
like, if you don't like others comments, don't bother reading them. or if you happened to read them, you have the power to ignore and not give yourself the heartache, no?
Of course she was right. it's her opinion. but to each their own.
Kata rabbit, if you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all.

No. 2
this one yg paling awesome lah.

I was being nice and said "why is he wearing a PJs?"
and hours later when I 'explore' my IG, i found these pictures.

I tell you over and over again, Shawol is high pretty much all the time and please don't give them any reason to. hahaha

I wonder if PD-nim went, 'let him be. Shawol loves him no matter what' kinda attitude when it was Onew's turn to do his shoot. Sigh. Kim Jonghyun, teach your hyung how to take nice picture, please? Shirtless one, maybe? *wawawawa* yeah yeah, i know what some of you must be thinking, "so shallow. nice meaning shirtless lah? klu not shirtless, not nice lah" bla bla bla bla bla... can't see/hear/read humor, don't watch/listen/read lahh

. . .

SHINee World Concert 4

SOOOOOOO

SWC4 has started, in Seoul 15th and 16th May. 

You have no idea just how much I wanted to cry. I want to go butttt I think I didn't want it bad enough coz I never really make an effort to find where and how to buy the ticket.
HAHAHAH
Lazy af i tell you

that is also why I became like this last night

hahaha poor baby...

SHINee's comeback starts on Monday, 18th May. 

I am exciteddddddd!!!!
already pre-order my copy! xD

 
. . .

a doctor, and a horse

currently watching an old (very old in a way. coz it's a period/historical) korean drama series called
Horse Doctor. baru sampai episode 9.
I'm still not getting the hang of this drama (as in not yet in love with it, yet) coz I was busy spazzing over the cast members that was once in another period/historical drama, DongYi. there were a lot of them in Horse Doctor, like, I thought Korea had a lot of supporting actors and actresses at their disposal. hahaha
reason why I wanted to watch this drama was because I thought 

this girl, Jung Yumi

yang belakun arah DongYi,
also belakun in Horse Doctor.


tapi rupanya bukan.

the one in Horse Doctor was actually

this girl, Kim SoEun

yang pernah belakun arah Boys Over Flower ah.

KAN SAMA BAH MUKA DURANG AHHH. SAMA KALI SURGEON NYA! kan korea ani famous dengan plastic surgery nya hahaha
ahh well..dah ku beli..liat saja chia sampai habis.
this will take forever of course. 
what's with moving and all.
i should have just sleep it off now.

OH! WAIT!
OST nya lawa.
sang by SoHyang. that pretty song bird.

have a listen




a/n: macam dapat commission saja bah cara ku mempromo lagu2 urg ani ahaha 

.  . .

Miss A

Only You

this song is nice too.

as much as I want to say Suzy is overrated, I think Suzy is overrated.

but that's all I know and read and saw online.

hahaha 

anyway, the song's is nice.

. . .

EXID

Ah Yeah is the name of the song.

"Getting down to this sick beat," was one of the few thoughts that came to mind when I listened to the beginning of this song.

I don't know how the original MV went but I think I am better off without it.

Now I understand why EXID won on music shows with this song.

applause. acceptable song to my ears.

*proceeds downloading this song*

. . .

Kim Jonghyun done it again

I saw this article before but wasn't giving much thought into it

but as I was downloading BoA's new song Who Are You (who's MV has Sehun in it. Yes, go and watch that MV now, you Exo-L you) and I came across Lim Kim's Simple Mind album.

and found this song



"Jonghyun composed, wrote, and produced a song last year" as I quote from Soompi article dated 21 Apr 2015.

Macam, *laugh* this is Jonghyun style.

From IU to Younha and now Lim Kim. sama saja style nya. 

Not hating but feeling the utmost pride over this boy. i can't explain it even in bahasa melayu. it's just bangga/proud that I'm a Shawol and even though Jonghyun is not my "ultimate" bias, he is SHINee and I am a Shawol. GAH! MA FEELS!

Noona is proud of you, Kim Jonghyun. So Proud. 

*throws confetti*

. . .

House Cup falls on 22nd May

and Hufflepuff is at second place at the moment behind Slytherin.

this website couldn't more far fetch from the books; Gryffindor isn't always the top house.

or maybe because the Golden (Harry, Hermione and Ron) and Silver (Ginny, Neville and Luna) Trios are no longer the student there?

hmmm

. . .

My Shoe, My Post, Mine all the way

I've been very cautious of what I write AND post on social media.

Like, I'm taking care of everyone's feelings for them.

BUT I thought, It's my account, my social media, then it's only relevant that I post what I want.

IF you can't handle my posts (coz apparently, everything I post are meant for them), then I suggest you unfollow/delete/block/etc me from your social media accounts.

NO, I'm not threatening you because I think you wouldn't do it. Instead, I VERY MUCH APPRECIATE IT IF YOU UNFOLLOW ME. Why? because it'd be less heartache for each sides. 

I've been wondering why I have to avoid logging in into my own account just so I can avoid people's post. 

I shouldn't have done it. I should've just do what I want, when I want it.

I shouldn't have to "terasa" from others' posts. 

I shouldn't have make their post my problem.
Because it's not.
It's theirs.

I'm pretty sure people be saying the same thing (of the above) to me.

So, all I'm saying is that, my posts are mostly random; random rage, random boredom, or simply just random random. If somehow it affects you in any way, then, that's not my problem. 

like the old saying goes, IF THE SHOE FITS, WEAR IT!

. . .

that Feeling

you know that feeling when you are so down and everything around you insisted to be wrong?

yeah, I'm having that feelings now.

it's frustrating and discouraging and demotivating.

maybe I'm the one who is unhappy in the first place but instead of everything else remain neutral as I wished, things just, don't.

So, all I'm doing right now is, to remain stagnant. like how my life has been for the past few years.

I'm usually a self-motivate person but today, I don't feel like motivating myself. I mean, what's the point really?

a/n: images are not mine

. . .

House Pride

I am sooooo hyped up with this.

Duelling Club is getting so much fun these days and my fellow Hufflepuff is making awesome progress into winning that House Cup this year.

So, to comrade this hyped up feelings, I play with my nail polish again.

hehe

the yellow nail polish is pretty eff up and I don't know how to perfect it so it came out like that.

Hufflepuff for the win!!

a/n: I cleaned my nails off like couple of minutes later. I just not digging my ugly painted nails. at least I managed to take a picture ;D

. . .

Flavors

this was posted today on IG and it made my day awesome.

I love red velvet flavors but NOT black forest. 

*rolled eyes* as lame as fandom can get, that choice of fan name actually pretty creative. 
but why not cheese cake or vanilla cake for that matter? I mean, those flavors go well with red velvet, i think.

Black forest is a little, I don't know. I just don't like them. ahahah I don't know, its so well beloved around my family too. I just don't get it. but that's just me. you can love it all you want, just don't give it to me. or I'll shove it down your throat. yes, that's how much I don't like it. *evil laugh*

anyways, Red Velvet is actually pretty cool. I listened to their first mini album. there are some good songs in there. My fave is Take It Slow. Nice vocals. I think. 
they came out right after f(x) promotion of Red Light was stopped so they got a lot of hate. I resented them too, for a while. Until I realized it wasn't Red Velvet fault. I blamed it all on Sulli that brat of f(x) maknae.
I know, I don't know the real thing either but from what the media had been showing and telling us, I'm gonna stick to blaming that brat. I hope she left f(x). (I know. hating. muahahah) I saw some comments on f(x) members' IGs (they were filming Baskin Robbins commercial recently and the other four members, who each has their on IG account, posted pictures without Sulli) saying why doesn't any of them tagged Sulli's name. I almost tagged those comments and said 'because the brat wasn't there?'. I mean, why would I tagged someone who wasn't there? COME ON! 
I'm so worked up right now over this brat issues.
Like I said. I don't know what's really going on but she continued to be missing, i think imma take a hint and assumed that she isn't ever gonna be.
and I'll be ok with that. she's so overrated anyway.

OK, let's wrap this up.

Red Velvet fandom's name is Black Forest and their light stick is going to be a Fork.

gotta love creative people with their super creative mind!

a/n: sorry it turns into 'hating-brat-maknae' post instead of just about 'Red Velvet flavors'
oh wait. No, I am not so sorry hating on that brat. hahahaha

. . .

Hello May May

hahaha theGeekyCouldron said she lived her life to post an almost similar post like this (I malas to screencap her post). Her's said 'It's Gonna Be May' also with a picture of Justin from the It's Gonna Be Me video.

but I love the above a lot more coz it's involved Mai from Avatar: The Last Airbender.

Happy May every one. 

Time travel fast and it is time for me and family to move from our current house to a new one. 

 there's just still so much to dooooooooooooooooo

Ah well, it'll be done.

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