2nd Grading Done. xD

Annyeong~ I know, I was lazy to update this thing. xD


as the title indicate, I just had my 2nd Grading. It was nerve-wrecking, i tell ya!! I was super miserable since last night. I was nervous, panicky, anxious, etc. All I wana do (as much as I was scared of it) is do my Grading n get it over n done with. ahaha

I had this Body Language Course/Workshop thingy going on in the morning tadi (from 8:30am till 12:30pm) and instead of trying to make me NOT to think about Grading, the workshop was doing exactly the opposite, thus making me more nervous. (i stood in front of everybody TWICE! i have 'stage' fright or being-the-center-of-attention-for-something-as-big-as-this-Grading fright, you see..) aku bleh pengsan you know.

and then, when i got back to my office after lunch, I was feeling queasy. I was blur (completely spacing out). I was THAT nervous, I could cry. I even left the office EXACTLY at 5:30pm. just so i can prepare and come early to the venue. I was THAT anxious about it. Scared but i kept thinking, 'it's all in my head' 'I can do this' 'this is not yr first time n it won't be yr last' 'JUST GET IT OVER AND DONE WITH!' i kept playing this inside of my head. Good thing I did. coz during the Grading session, I was a lil bit calmer than when I first do the Grading last year. ahahah!

So, now..I've calmed down. I ate. (i skipped lunch -_-) and now I think I should really sleep early. ahaha sigh. I just hope I pass. coz that Sir Johnny was like, 'you did it all wrong' -_- (nope, mana ku duli apa ya ckp tadi tu. Banar. coz I was just glad, abis Grading dh. LoL!)

p/s: I hope i'll be MUCH calmer in March. :S