Not what am Supposed to post...

thats rite. Not wat am supposed to post.

i was about to rage out bout the day i had here tad but after watching new episodes of Ghost Whisperer season 4, i decided, not to.

Why? Becoz, Bitches gona remain Bitches even if they tried not to be one anymore and two, becoz i already raged out all in a paper, 2 pages full! i mean, am i not a good writer or what?! ahahaha

ahh well, since like i sed in my paper, this things happened more than once before, i think, i should learn to ignore them by now. but the only problem is, i can't. i mean, i can but am juz this person who can't let go stuff like that. If you asked me, "you gona bring this to ur grave?" then my answer would be, "Definitely". am juz that kind of person.

Man, i juz wish i didn't write those thoughts or anger in that piece of paper. mcm, it was supposed to be a draft saja supaya i dun talk nonsense here but who ever does?!

I LOVE GHOST WHISPERER!!

hahah i dun wana spoiled it for my sister but...on second thought, biar ya suspen MUAHAHAHA
oh, speaking of my sista, i tried to tell her tad bout that bitch but my sista, she was busy. She's my living diary. becoz, most of the times, once i've told her my problem, thats it. nda th lagi ku ceta rh urg tu. which is good, for me. less mngumpating besides with her ahahaha. So, meaning, if aku gtau urg lain first before her, bnyk jua ku ngumpat tuu..i duno, story gets bored after i told her. not that my sister's boring (or maybe she is :p ahaha) but somewhat, she absorbs it more than everybody else (or maybe she juz had to becoz she's the eldest n she has to take care of the youngster ;p). Juz like those books/diaries/papers i wrote down my feelings to. i pour them all out but all they ever do is taking them all in. (except with my sister, since she's a living diary, she talks back, annoying but knowlegable :p ahah) So, yeah, thats my sister.

I LOVE GHOST WHISPERER!! i wana tell you bout those episodes i juz finished watching. they were awesome. sweeter, n aku nangis. gawd! i think, am the only one among my circles of friends yg liat this series :p but never mind, more for me. :p n CHRIS SANDERS. HE'S SOOOOOOOO CUTE N HOT! although his name was like, rh intro atu but he was hardly in every scene. baik plang ya bukn anank cDelia kali tu. maybe he'll be in EVERY scenes. ahah selfish but arent we all?

talking bout scenes, i like Eli's character now. he's a shrink. n he can hear ghosts. and my point, he's in many2 scenes n he's funny. of course, c Rick Payne punya character pun funny but he's not around anymore, is he? he's in some kind of adventure place in Africa (lupa ku dh dmana). crap. he should be doin what he did, then came Eli n they'll be like, awesome. the Ghost Whisperer, the Know-It-All n the Shrink. it'd be perfect! haha baik th aku yg mbuat script ahh :p


ok lah..ngaleh ku. dah th tadi aku stranded (not the exact word am supposed to be using) outside my own house. then things happened n i spent. which am not supposed to. (notice how much am using 'Supposed To' in this post?)
So, ciao~

the Uninvited

the Uninvited. its a remake of the Korean Horror movie, the Tale of Two Sisters. Watched that but i dun remember how the story goes ahaha. but i do remember that the Korean version was VERY confusing. am scared that the Uninvited would be the same but i wana watch it still because Emily Browning, who played Anna character, was in it. kehkeh.

the Uninvited is a story bout a teenage girl who got sent to an asylum becoz she needed 'help'..psl her mother was killed in an accident (so she thought) and she was somewhat in a traumatic destress? So, i duno, she needed help. (whatever~ LoL!)
10 months after (thats when the storyline started), she was released because the 'doctor pesakit jiwa' atu thought that she was ready to leave and go home. and she did. and what i like bout the movie, it didn't linger to get to the story, it gets there right away. hahah am an impatient lady, if aku mau tau, aku mau tau, right away jua ahahah
neways, in the end, paham ku cetanya. nda confuse langsung. but maybe thats because, aku bca dah the Story before aku liat tad atu..i mean, weeks ago, i was surfing the net bout this movie n found an article containing the story synopsis. it was warned there that there are gona be spoilers n all but, i juz wana know. ahah n i tot i'd be like, scared to close my eyes after aku liat movie atu but no. it wasn't a ghost movie as i thought it would be. So, yeah..am satisfied. ahaha most ceta pembunuhan always disappoint me psl in the end, mcm..nda ku paham..or paham but cetanya tu mcm kn ada sambungan lagi. mbari banci tu ceta2 yg endingnya catu atu.. :p
Oh, i forgot to mention this one thing, after finishing the movie, i remember thinking, this movie remind me of some previous movie i've watched; Hide and Seek- Dakota Fanning was in it. Different storyline or maybe similar (watever)..tapi the main character atu mcm sma storynya, ia pikir ia ada dangan or ia pikir there was another person p actuallynya, ia sorang ja..(kesian~~ psycho tah banar :p)...
i think thats about it yg aku mau post tonight..am tired. u shud see me with patches on either side of my temples (hahah p masih bleh buat blog n watched a movie tad..fyi: aku sakit pala round midnight n now its 2:56am :p) msani :p bh, am outie..will be back soonies for more updates (or not ;p lol!)
ciao~

Don't Say...

Got introduced to you by my friend
You were cute and all that, baby you set the trend
Yes you did oh
The next thing I know we're down at the cinema
We're sitting there, you start kissing me
What's that about?

You're moving too fast, I don't understand you
I'm not ready yet, baby I can't pretend
No I can't
The best I can do is tell you to talk to me
It's possible, eventual
Love will find a way
Love will find a way...


Don't say you love me
You don't even know me
If you really want me
Then give me some time
Don't go there baby
Not before I'm ready
Don't say your heart's in a hurry
It's not like we're gonna get married
Give me, give me some time

Here's how I play, here's where you stand
Here's what to prove to get any further than where it's been
I'll make it clear, not gonna tell you twice
Take it slow, you keep pushing me
You're pushing me away
Pushing me away...

[Chorus]

Don't say you love me
You don't even know me baby...

Baby don't say love me, baby
Give me some time...

Reminiscing the Second

Westlife LIVE!
(my sis arguement: its NOT live unless u were there to bare witness of it. :P i DUN CARE! *muahaha*)

I only ever watched the following, together with the Westlife Story. man, i was so obsessed! ahah i missed those times when i cheered and laughed and cried while watching the DVD.. (stupid really but i wouldn't want me any other way :p)

Where Dreams Come True.
you should've seen me with this one.
i was beyond obsessed and watched it like many MANY times.
fav. part (s) of the Show: Season in the Sun. BECOZ the boys took of their pants! ahah They were 'tearing' off their jackets and throwing them to the crowds. Undoing their pants was juz a tease :p We love them though, don't we girls? *winks*

the Greatest Hits
i went crazy with this one too (bila jua nda? :p). psl cBrian or Bryan was soooooooooooooo cute and handsome! *dies*
fav. part (s) of the Show: the Medley; I Get Around (Nicky solo), Do You Love Me (Bryan solo. He was so SEXY here :p), Twist & Shout (Shane solo), Great Balls of Fire (Kian solo) and Kiss (Mark solo). their outfit was awesome (ada gmbr drg blkng jacket drg), becoz they ALL sing!, they were fooling around, go SEXY. ahaha BEST perfomance ever!
What i hate most bout this show is the part where Brian/Bryan said, "Westlife is not Breaking up" (becoz, you know, the whole Greatest Hits Album, and tours) when what he should actually said is that he was leaving the band. believe me when i said, i was devastated! when he left.

the Turnaround Tour
sad moment for me. becoz no more Brian/Bryan. Kian fills in for Brian/Bryan like he usually do when Brian/Bryan was not around when he was still in the Band. But Westlife, they still pull thru. Gets better, even. Well Done Boys!

fav. part (s) of the Show: the Medley jua. this time, drg sang ramai2 ja. Help, F.R.I.E.N.D.S theme song-I'll be There For You, Wake Me Up Before You Go Go, That's the Way (I Like It). i also like the part where they sing acapella to Swear It Again, Flying Without Wings and Uptown Girl.

the Number Ones Tour.
hmm..ok lah..reaction ku, msa ku nmpk (as always) EXCITED!
fav. part (s) of the Show: again, Medley but yg stuck in my head I Feel Fine and Foot Loose. i also like the Rat Pack part of the show and aku suka smua lagu! i love the fact yg cKian bnyk nyanyi hehe. Sweet esp lagu Mack the Knife. Oh msa lagu Smile, cNicky and Kian were dancing like a couple and Kian tried to squeeze Nicky's arse. Of course he didn't! but Kian ended up giving Nicky a kiss on his cheek. EWWWW but SO CUTE! N SWEET N CUUUTTTEEE!!!

Live at Wembley.
errmm i only watched this one twice ( i think). i dun remember much of it hahah kurang obsess dh ni tym ya kluar ani :p. but i like the part where they sing Don't Cha. xD

10 Years of Westlife Live at Croke Park Stadium.
BEST SHOW EVER!
Croke Park Stadium is Europe's 4th BIGGEST Stadium. they SOLD-OUT. and It's in Ireland. Where they come from.
Sweetest Moment: MANY. i mentioned some rh my FS Blog already. part bout how the perfomance was like bits and pieces from their previous concerts. the dancing, the rock n roll, the Rat Pack thingy going on. All of it. like a reminiscent. Sweet.
Mark's moment: "what were you thinkin'?!" but "Well Done, Markie, Well Done!"
fav. part(s) of the Show: the Medley. ada lagu Let Me Entertain You. suits with their action! the rest pun awesome jua!
Touching Moment: aku nangis with 'the crowd'. i duno. this is their last performance before they go on a VERY LONG break (which they are in right now but will be back on, working on the new album, i duno, end of this year? or was it August? It can't be May. atu cKian kawin tu, sma cJodi (CONGRATULATION GUYS!!!).. hmmm Not sure)



So, there ya go. i wish they release their World of Our Own Tour live on DVD jua. becoz, i've seen picture and some vclip on the net from that concert and it looked AWESOME. circular stage n everything. cool outfit. sigh! you can only wish so much :p..

Enjoy my obsession!

Reminiscing

I MISS WESTLIFE

Westlife.
Released in 1999. If I Let You Go Single is what started all my Obsession.
Fav. Song (s): If I Let You Go, Miss You, What I Want is What I've Got.

Coast to Coast.

Released in 2000.
Tahap Obsession: beyond Maximum.
Fav. Song (s): I Lay My Love On You, Puzzle of My Heart and Loneliness Knows me by Name.

World of Our Own.
Released in 2001.
Obsession Rate: Maximum, Maximum
Fav. Song (s): Why Do I Love You?, I Wanna Grow Old with You, If Your Heart's Not in It and Love Crime.

Unbreakable: the Greatest Hits. Vol. 1.
Released in 2002.
Obsession rate: Unbreakable!
fav. Song (s): When You're Looking Like That (single Mix) and Written in the Stars.

Turnaround.
Released in 2003.
Tahap Obsession: Kurang Sikit. i duno why but kurang. *yay i've grown up :p*
fac. Song (s): Heal, Obvious, Thank You, Home and What Do they Know?

Allow Us to be Frank.
Released in 2004.

Obsession: berkurangan. pndi mengkritik lagu2 drg dh.
Fav. Song (s): Aint that a Kick in the Head, Fly Me to the Moon, Mack the Knife, and Clementine.

Face to Face.
Released in 2005.
Obsession: BACK! rindu sngt2!
Fav. Song (s): Amazing, Despearado, Heart Without a Home, Hit You with The Real Thing.

the Love Album.
Released in 2006.

Obsession: No reaction. Siriusly.
Fav. Song (s): i seldom, like, VERY seldom, listen to this album, but i downloaded the following songs on Limewire and they become somewhat, my fav xD; All Out of Love (feat Delta Goodrem), You Light Up My Life , Love Can Build a Bridge and All or Nothing.

Back Home.
Released in 2007.
Obsession: *tears* indescribable.
Fav. Song (s): Us Against the World, Something Right, Have You Ever, and Pictures in My Head.






to tell you the truth, when i started listening back to all these albums, i like ALL of the songs. like, i sing along and at some point tears formed. Not becoz the song as a meaning or something but becoz, I MISS WESTLIFE. i know they'll be back working this year and maybe releasing an album end of this year or early next year but still, i miss them. sigh. i grow up with Westlife. Their songs, their concerts, everything. uuwaaaaaa sedihnyaaaa~~~~ :p

ahahah so, yeah, I MISS YOU, WESTLIFE!

Lesson Learned.

Lesson No;

1) nvr get too close or friendly with yr Boss, Officer and Supervisor. Why? Well, tym nya kn bekwn, "Bespren" sma urg bawahannya, they'll be like, all normal, understanding and such. in a Meeting, they completely changed into their true character (that is, the Boss, the Officer and the Supervisor). and when they do, thats when they'll backstabbed you. So, i repeat, NEVER EVER get too close to them.

2) be sensitive and hold grudges for your own defences' sake. Why? becoz the 'Three' mentioned above will DEFINITELY say something harsh about you- in YOUR FACE. e.g. Me and my entire lower ranking colleague of my Dept were told that we're a bunch of Nobody. a NOBODY?! ok. it started when the 'Two' mentioned above started a meeting for our Dept. they were talking bout Lateness and having the courtesy to call the office and informing other staff n such. Then they started saying about how Our HOD, who's also the Asst. Manager, has that courtesy. then they started saying bout we should follow the HOD's attitude. pastu something like " if she can do it, and why can't you? and she's the manager, what are you? nobody". i may not catch the exact words but THATS what she (as in the one yg beckp atu lah..bukn HOD/Asst. Manager atu) said. we are a Nobody. Ok fine, our fault. aher n not calling or informing anyone that we'll be late or whatever but that doesn't gives you the right to call us a Nobody. IF WE'RE BUNCH OF NOBODY, THEN YOU ARE TOO. COZ WITHOUT US, THERE'LL BE NO YOU AND THEN THERE'LL BE NO THAT COMPANY. without us ah, nada kamu dpt kmana jua with juz you. bagtau th aku yg ko bleh buat kaja atu sorang mu, then aku terima cemuhan mu yg kami ani a Nobody. if not, FREAKIN' FUCKING HELL WITH YA!! and i quote from Ever After "they're (refers to us, urg bawah2an ani) the legs you stand on and that position demand respect" NOT SOME BITCH-TALK TELLING US THAT WE'RE NOBODY!

3) Never look back. After the Meeting (yes, am posting this blog based on THAT one meeting), when the 'Three' mentioned earlier tried to joke around, trying to make conversation, laughing at your jokes that was not intended for them to join in, IGNORE THEM.

4) why do all of the above, esp No. 1 and 3? becoz, these are their ways of getting informations out of you. the Bad, the Goods of some other people. then these information that you leaked out (mostly unintentionally, becoz you're being vunerable to someone you felt safe telling all the 'info' to) will be used in their General meeting or something and if you're not lucky, the info u gave will be put against you too.

5) So, becareful. i've learned my lessons the hard way (like i always do). i hope you won't be making the same mistakes too. i mean, make mistakes. it'd make you wiser. but this kind of mistake, it'll ruin you and yr career to say the least. So, i duno. beware? becareful? be more cautious with Two Faces Human Being? i duno. take as much as you want from this post. it'd do you good. i mean, I know life's a hardcore bitch, but there are ways of telling people the truth. (and telling any human being they're bunch of Nobody IS NOT one of them. in any way possible) Oh, remember, smua mereka2 yg lampau frenly atu kn, becareful. they're the most TWO FACES HUMAN BEING tu. NOT ALL OF THEM, NOT EVEN SOME OF THEM. juz A HANDFULL OF THEM TEND TO LEAN ON THAT DIRECTION.

6) SIAL JUA TU YA UCAP KAMI NOBODY! KAMI NOBODY, KAMU APA KURANGNYA. SAMA2 JUA KANA BAYAR GAJI WAH! IA NDA JUA KANA BAYAR EXTRA JAD BITCH CEMATU ATU! FREAKIN HELL!! BANCI BANAR KU!! MUDAHAN KAMU SELAMAT SANA AH. KAN MELIAT JUA KU DRG ATU JAD KAYA RAYA LUAN KN BEMULUT AH. THERE'S A LIMIT KN BETERUS-TERANG AND EVERYTHING KN MENYADARKN URG. I WANA SEE THEM DO THE SAME MSA BOSS KAMI ADA. SEE IF THEY'LL BE ABLE TO SAY THE SAME THING. SEE IF THEY'D BE ALL 'TRUE'. SEE IF THEY HAVE THE GUTS TO CALL US FOR THE MEETING. well, they'll definitly have the guts, that, i give them the credit but still. RESPECT TOWARDS OTHER STAFFS, OTHER COLLEAGUES?! WELL, YOU'RE NOT DOING A VERY GOOD JOB AT IT. DO YOU EVEN REALISE WHATS COMING OUT OF YOUR MOUTH? OR DO YOU TAKE YOUR OWN ADVICE AT LEAST? APPARENTLY, NOT!

7) all these juz gives me more reason to leave the job. all i need to do first is to find another job. i need the money man. my Dec plan, my mom pencen next year, everything. i need the money. Now, i understand how come people could stay working in a place where they hated so much. becoz, people needed the money. for survival!

Think of Me

Think of Me, think of me Fondly
When We've said Goodbye
Remember Me, once in a while
Please promise me, You'll try

Then you'll find that Once again You long
to Take your heart back and be Free
If you'll ever find the moment
Spare a thought for me

We Never said Our love was Evergreen
or as unchanging as the sea
But if you can still remember
Stop and Think of Me

Think of All the things
We've Shared and Seen
Don't Think about the way
things might have been

Think of Me, think of me Waking
Silent and resigned
Imagine me, trying too Hard
to get you from My Mind

Recall those days, look back on all those times
Think of those things we'll never do
There will never be a day
When i won't Think of You

(skipping the Male verses, since i dun see the connection :p)

Flowers fade, the fruits of Summer fade
They have their seasons, So do we
But please Promise me that sometimes
You Will Think of Me

Phantom of The Opera (2004) - Think of Me

the Perfect Fan

I JUZ LOVE THE LYRICS...

It Takes a lot to know what Love is
Its Not the Bing Things but the Little Things
That Can mean Enough
A lot of Prayers to get me Through
and there is Never a day that passes by
i Didn't think of You

You were always there for me
Pushing Me and Guiding Me
Always to Succeed

You showed Me
When I was Young Just how to Grow
You Showed Me
Everything that I should Know
You Showed ME
Just how to walk without Your Hands
Coz MOM you always were
the Perfect Fan

God has been so Good
Blessing me with a Family
Who did all they could
and I've had many years of Grace
and It flatters me when I see a smile on your Face

I wanna Thank You for what You've Done
In hopes I can Give Back To You
and be the Perfect Son

You showed Me
When I was Young Just how to Grow
You Showed Me
Everything that I should Know
You Showed ME
Just how to walk without Your Hands
Coz MOM you always were
the Perfect Fan

You Showed Me How to Love
You Showed Me how To Care
and You showed me that You would Always be There
I wanna Thank You for that Time
and I'm Proud to say You're mine

You showed Me
When I was Young Just how to Grow
You Showed Me
Everything that I should Know
You Showed ME
Just how to walk without Your Hands
Coz MOM you always were
the Perfect Fan


"i Love You, Mom"

the Perfect Fan by Backstreet Boys.

Lets get Random and Personal

was watching Heroes tad n i was like, paning. becoz, lampau bnyk characters, also bnyk jua yg mati. then jln cetanya mikin complicated. Like Grey's Anatomy, luan bnyk characters + ceta masing2.. finsihed watching two disc. am gona continue tomorrow g dua disc (SADAR2 DANG!)

i wana watch Shopaholic (though aku bali dh DVD nya) n Fast n Furious. the Uninvited. apa g? ohh i need to buy a printer (what?! aout ani wah..dari kn liat movie apa to mbali printer LoL!)

i have new crush but he's not all that. He's cute. he's sirius MOST of the tym but at times, when i see him smile, i was like, "Pandai senyum panya"..haha i duno what i see in him. klu liat bnr2, he's not that good looking..ANTAH LAHH.. *air quoting* there's juz something *air quoting* about him yg mbuat aku terpikat xD (aisehmen, cantiknyerr bulaannn)

OH! shud've put this on top. aku kana umpat. they called me 'LAZY'. of course am offended and upset and devastated and sensitive and tearful. WHY? becoz those antu yg called me 'pemalas' atu, they dun even work with me!! not even in the same dept. dun even know my work load atu cana. i have a foul mood for 2 days now. giving me more good reason to leave. i have another theory plang. becoz, one of the antu, sat next to my colleague yg satu dept. maybe DIA yg start ngumpat aku pemalas. YG MBUATKN AKU LAGI SEDIH TERAMAT, DIA ani kn, selalu kn nulong aku bh..like klu ia abis dh buat kaja nya, ia kira kn tulong aku lah..BUT MUN BNR TH IA YG START THT GOSSIP AHH, BAIK TH SADANG2. MUN NDA KN MENULUNG, JGN. ANI BEKATA2 YA. PEDAH2NYA! SAKIT JA ATI KU!!
TETAPI KN JUA, there's a possiblity yg urg yg mendgr umpatan ani kn, slh dgr nama. but antah lah. i can't really rely on this posibilities. mcm, tarnish tia nama ku sna atu. so, no matter what i do, aku pretending ja lah..aku ni kn, pemalas.
OH! yg kusedih jua ahh.. urg yg ngucap aku pemalas ani kn, slalu lagi awal balik dari aku bh. like, aku balik aher sja for this past few weeks ani, POINTLESS LAH! nda menunjukkn rajin ku? mun ku mls wah, nada ku kn balik aher2..isuk2 th lagi ku menyambung tu! SIAL BH URG NGUCAP AKU AHH!! NDA SADAR BAIK LAGI TU! DTAMPAR KALI KPALANYA ATU BARU TH SADAR KALI! damn it! mun aku mls ahh...*eeeeeeeeeeeeeee* ntah ahh..nda ku tau g cna kn convince people yg aku nda pemalas dOpis atu. mun aku mls ahh *eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee* TAMPAR CHIA KALI EH!

BANCI KU!!!!!!!!

pengajaran to those yg kn ngumpat atu, GATHER YOUR FACTS FIRST AHHH...jan kn ngumpat2 tapi nada kebenarannya..MBAGI MALU SJA!

*take a deep breath and exhale* FREAKIN HELL!!!