In the End, It doesn't even matter

It starts with
One thing I don't know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind, I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know
Time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It’s so unreal
Didn’t look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on but didn’t even know
I wasted it all just to watch you go

I kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when...

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

One thing, I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind, I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I’m surprised it got so (far)
Things aren’t the way they were before
You wouldn’t even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
In the end

You kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when...

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter

I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There’s only one thing you should know

I've put my trust in you


- In The End, Linkin Park.

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Green with envy?

Hello lovely people!

I feel like posting my The Faceshop haul tonight but since I haven't gather my photos,

I think I'll just start with this:

my very short review on the Faceshop/Disney, Mike Wazowski, 

CC Long-Lasting Cushion.

it has SPF50+ PA+++

(whatever that means LOL!)

and like its name, its supposed to last long.

When I first open the packaging, I was a little turn off.

the cushion thingy kinda, flaky.

like, what the hell?

but I'm not about to waste, so, I still use loh.

it works like BB cream. 

I honestly don't know what BB or CC stands for.

but sales ladies (both in Brunei and Miri, Malaysia) said that its brighten dull skins and no need to use Foundation underneath (coz, i wear foundation when I wear face powder on a daily basis?)

this thing does not really covers your pimples/scars.

my tudung is SHINee color btw ヽ(‘ ∇‘ )ノ

but it really brighten up my face when I wear it. kira, macam, flowless sikit (sikit saja, inda banyak LOL)

here's how it covers my dark eyebags ⊙﹏⊙

hmm..

Remember that Nyx products I bought in my previous post?

well, the green and purple primers covers pimples/scars more.

the Long Lasting part?

they do last long, if i don't wash my face along the way.

this is just me dabbing my sweat off. see the yellowish part? the products came off a little.

imagine if I wash with water?

meaning, when I wash my face, the product came off easy. 

which is a plus for me. q(❂‿❂)p

I like when products came of easy with water 

Overall, I like wearing this,

coz 

I like how I feel after I put it on..

I feel ala2 korean lah... *flip tudung back*

hahahahahah

#saklieh

with that 'perasan' moment, I end this post.

See you on my next one,

hopefully it'll be that Faceshop haul post. （ ；´Д｀）

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20th Jan 2017

haiiiiiiii

I is backkkk

it's been ten days since I last posted here.

I began this post with such hatred and discontent. 

and knowing how unhealthy that was, I decided, to be the 'bigger' person.

eventhough I'm only 5ft. I don't know how to be any bigger than that (other than getting more fat!)

anyway,

10 days huh?

a lot happened.

one of them beingggg

my company's annual dinner. 

the Theme: Deep Blue See.

my theme is Sebastian, The Little Mermaid's crab butler. 

I put my own make-up.

a proper one, complete with spraying my face with setting spray.

I know crabby (get it? lol~!) 

Not 100% happy with my 'accomplishment' 

but nyeh!

bought these items the morning of the dinner.

hahaha suka last minit

I have an upset stomach so I can't comment much on the food.

but I love the mushroom soup so much.

Somehow, this year's dinner are far more entertaining than the previous ones.

even manage to finish on time!

took this picture at one part of the decoration on stage.
this picture didn't do justice. the deco was soo pretty!

these boys are two of the five finalist for Male Best Dress.

below photo is me after the dinner, stole the balloons from a table LOL

We had lucky draws at the dinner which I didn't win any.

I only got the BND40 vouchers consolation price.

*shrug

better than nothing at all.

and 

that is a wrap on the dinner.

Thank you for reading my post and I see you on my next post!

ciao~

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another Lip Tint Story

Hi guys~
on to the second week of 2017
hows your year so far?

I can't complain.
not to a human being at least
but what I complain in my journal is completely different story altogether

anyway~

I'm going to review my second (new) lip tint.

this one is called Wine Lip Tint by Man Zi Miao (I think thats the owner/maker).

at the back (or another side) it says Lipgloss Water Proof : RD02 NEBBIOLO RED

the reason why I want it was because the cap was purple in color. I didn't know the packaging indicates the color red LOL!

i/ you shouldn't try and smear lip tint. coz it will stained your finger instead

(the white thingy is not booger :P its my make-up remover balm)

ii/ I realised that the color on the lips differ in different lighting

my room

My car

at the office

iii/ the tint dried matte and it does not transfer

iv/ like the previous tint, when putting a second coat, it becomes patchy/has dark spots.

v/ too bad it really is not 'water proof' coz the moment water touches my lips, the tint came off.
no picture here.

vi/ then I realized I don't have to use any of my make-up removers. I just rub my lips with water and the color will washes off. although not at once. 

this is after I put a lipbalm on coz both this lip tint and the previous one isn't moisturizing like the packaging said. 

see how very stained my lips were? I know thats the purpose of a lip tint but I would like it to be off when I want it off, namsayin?

My only peeve (with any lipstick/lip gloss/lip tint) is really the stain
but despite that,
Will I wear this again?
YES
coz I'm not about wasting
besides, I like how dark it gets under office lighting. kekeke
although I can not really use them during normal office hour coz dark shades lips isn't allowed for frontliners (a.k.a. to those who attend customer at the counter). that picture was taken on Saturday, not normal working day.

*shrug*
seriously, how do you end your post? how you phrase it?

̿̿’̿’\̵͇̿̿\=(•̪●)=/̵͇̿̿/’̿̿ ̿ ̿ ̿

Next, I feel like posting my Face Shop haul from November/December 2016 and January 2017.
reason: because I think I spent too much on the brand in less than two months

feel baru tu, alum action.
( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

Pray for my rajin-ness.

Until then,
see yah~

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Passengers

HI guys!

first day of work in 2017 wasn't so bad.
at least, not as bad as I expected; nothing I couldn't handle, anyway~
A good start.

for today's post, I'm going to review (or lack of) this movie I watched last week, Passengers.
a sci-fi, romance, kinda movie.

I was googling the movie poster and I was right that there was already a movie named Passengers before, starring Anna Hathaway. but aku inda pernah liat that movie walaupun I love Anna Hathaway.

this 2016, Passengers movie stars Chris Pratt and Jennifer Lawrence.



I only ever heard of this movie arah interview cJennifer and watched a tiny bit of the trailer on TV. 
Basically, I have no idea what this movie was about other than it being in space.

the reason why I'm even doing this is because
*drum rolls*
there are a number of scenes in this movie that reminds me of other movie that I've watched before.

Ender's Game

Wall-E

Prometheus

Titanic

Gravity

The Martian

I know, Titanic's the only one yg bukan movie pasal space.

but this is what this Passenger movie is all about; clever puns.
watch the trailer I shared here. you'll understand why I include Titanic. ahahaha

overall, I love this movie. 
I have zero expectation when I went in to watch it, so, it was a nice surprise. 
I thought I'd hate it!

A for effort! 

. . .

Unboxing Day

Ssuuupppp!

I collected my SHINee's Season's Greetings Calendar set yesterday from our local kpop dealer (mcm drug dealer hahaha), Yeszone. and the box is hugggeeeee!! like, equals to two F4 sizes.

In the beginning, when Yeszone announced that they open pre-orders for the SM's artists season's greetings, I wasn't excited about getting one coz I already missed 2016 punya version (I bought 2014 & 2015 previously).
But last minute and impulsive moment, I pre-ordered mine.
kehkehkeh
Glad that I did, coz, you know, SHINee. Ｏ(≧▽≦)Ｏ

Let's get to the unboxing

First thing you saw when you open the lid. 

(front)

don't they look fuzzy and cuddly?

(back)

this box comes with a Table calendar, Wall calendar (pictured above), Diary, Mini calendar and a mini Stand board. I think worth the price of BND70.

1. Wall Calendar. (New Features)
comes with the 'hanger' (lupa ambil gmbr)

surprised that the copies are loose (not stapled together in the middle)

double as a poster

and I went, "Oh! patut loose. double as a poster panya"

ada some English infos (walaupun a few lines saja English nya o(╥﹏╥)o ) on the members which is always nice to see.

2. Table Calendar

Love the fact that January started off with leader Onew. <3 font="">

(●´ω｀●)

quite similar to the previous calendar I got; the entire page mostly covered with their photos and the dates are in smaller fonts. in all honesty, I hardly ever refer to this calendar to check the dates or such. *gelak*

3. Diary.

this one is similar to 2015 one. hard cover, book-like diary
2014 punya is ring binding.
2014 and 2017 have similar fine line inside. 

easier for me to turn it into normal one-lined journal (づ｡◕‿‿◕｡)づ

4. Mini calendar 

basically a postcard photo collection. 2015 pun have similar like this one. \m/(>.<)\m/


5. Mini board stand (New features)

I got Minho. I, of course, would have love it more if aku dapat cOnew's.

You noticed how the photos are repetitive. similar to the previous released. at least from the 2014 & 2015 lah ah. I can't say about 2016 coz I missed that one.

Let me list down items from different years' box
2014 - Diary, Table calendar, and DVD (features the making of)
2015 - Diary, Table calendar, DVD (features the making of), and Mini calendar
2017 - Diary, Table calendar, Wall calendar, Mini calendar, and mini board Stand.

Lupa ku dulu berapa harganya but I'm sure it was cheaper than 2017 punya.

*shrug*

and with that little info, ends my unboxing post.

Hope you enjoy this entry.

I see you on the next post.

Have a great week ahead.

Work resume tomorrow for me, 3rd of Jan 2016. 

excited.

. . .

2017 is here!

Happy New Year!! 

*throws confetti*

I am just thankful that I made it thru another year.

Been thru my worst in 2016 but that is now in the past and on to the here and now, onto the future.

No public resolutions, just a personal ones  ≧◡≦

I've been thru so much that I know I can make it thru anything.

Thank you to all who have been there, supporting me, giving me words of advise, and most of all, still are with me to this day.

Thank you! ◕3◕

Lastly, 

let's embark 2017 with positivity yo!

 ┏(＾0＾)┛┗(＾0＾) ┓

coz we all need that most.

Lot of love,

Az Nuur Ajeerah Awang.

a.k.a. 

leeVengeance 

a.k.a.

Onew's future waifeu. ╰(◡‿◡✿╰)

(◕‿◕✿)

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